Sunday, September 19, 2010

Missed opportunity

Sometimes for insight, I'll read back through my previous writings.  I like to recall where certain situations  started, the drama I felt within that moment, and then gain perspective from the present.  A certain situation I recently read about hasn't offered me much growth, only a bit of distance.
I was hit with the bittersweet pang of nostalgia and wanted to share this particular unsent letter:

Last week when everybody left
and I gave you a ride home,
your hand brushed mine -
though you kept it light.

My mind wandered
and I could barely keep my cool.

I said nothing in response to your small talk and
kept my breathing steady.

But when I looked over
and glimpsed your smile,
the flashbacks of what we could've been
replayed in my mind -
my fantasies of you and I together
laughing, dancing, loving, sexing
ugh, you had no idea.
you just kept us in reality.

Because you've already got a girl
and would do her no wrong,
and I don't want to intrude,
but I want you know that I wish you would've waited for me.

In the midst of your small talk you mentioned one thing that stuck in my head.
You said, "You and me - we're too late."

too late.

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